Life Is Beautiful
/Yesterday we were driving home from a weekend in the mountains and this song came on. It reminded me of what happened on Saturday, June 18, 2016... my most recent weekend at Hufeland Klinik in Germany.
That morning, when I woke up... I felt like a veil had been lifted from my heart and everything was BEAUTIFUL. I looked at the leaves on the trees in the park across the street from my room and it was so beautiful that it made me cry... I listened to the words of songs that I love and they were so beautiful that it made me cry... all day, throughout the entire day, my heart and my eyes just overflowed with the incredible feeling and realization that (as cheesy as it sounds)... Life Is Beautiful.
For the most part, I've found life to be really hard and challenging and painful and filled with lots of suffering. I'm a sensitive person. Add to that life's facts of my dad's major car accident and my older sister's death while I was in college that led to depression... and chronic health issues since I was a child including severe Epstein Barr Virus (mononucleosis) and Q Fever (a rare bacterial infection)... and lots of other emotional and spiritual traumas... it just felt like living life was a constant uphill battle.
But on that day... on that sweet Saturday in June... life and nature and creation and other people (including my dear friend Nadine who I wrote about here) enraptured me with their innate beauty. How have I been missing this everyday of my life?
Of course, it didn't last. I wanted that feeling and experience to stay with me, but when I woke up Sunday morning the veil returned. What was lovely, was that this past Thursday (August 4, 2016) when I was walking 3 miles around the lake by my house, I felt a little bit of this again. For the 45 minutes it took me to go around the lake, I felt like I was literally walking through a love letter that the Divine had written just for me... the green leafy branches against the bright blue sky... the way the wind drew designs across the top of the water... the birds singing and the various fragrances and the way the reeds rustled along the shoreline... and all for me... beautiful life that I had the opportunity walk through. I cried from the beauty of it all.
So then on Sunday when this song came on... I wept yet again... (I've been doing a lot of that since June)...
They told you life is hard / it's misery from the start / it's dull and slow and painful
I tell you life is sweet / in spite of the misery / there's so much more / be grateful
Who do you believe? / who will you listen to / who will it be?
It's high time you decide / it's time you make up your own sweet little mind
[My #MisheardLyrics is "It's time to make God your own state of mind"]
Life Is Sweet
by Natalie Merchant / Indian Love Bride ©1997
It's a pity
it's a crying shame
who pulled you down again?
how painful it must be
to bruise so easily inside
It's a pity
it's a downright crime
but it happens all the time
you wanna stay little daddy's girl
wanna hide from the vicious world outside
But don't cry
know the tears'll do no good
so dry your eyes
Your daddy he's the iron man
a battleship wrecked on dry land
your mama she's a bitter bride
she'll never be satisfied,
and you know
that's not right
But don't cry
know the tears'll do no good
so dry your eyes
They told you life is hard
it's misery from the start
it's dull and slow and painful
I tell you life is sweet
in spite of the misery
there's so much more
be grateful
Who do you believe?
who will you listen to
who will it be?
it's high time that you decide
in your own mind
Tried to comfort you
tried to tell you to be patient
they are blind
they can't see
Fortune gonna come some day
all gonna fade away
your daddy the war machine and
your mama the long and suffering
prisoner of what she can not see
They told you life is hard
it's misery from the start
it's dull and slow and painful
I tell you life is sweet
in spite of the misery
there's so much more
be grateful
Who do you believe?
who will you listen to
who will it be?
It's high time you decide
it's time you make up your own sweet little mind
[My #MisheardLyrics is "It's time to make God your own state of mind"]
They told you life is long
be thankful when it's done
don't ask for more
you should be grateful
But I tell you life is short
be thankful because before you know
it will be over
Cause life is sweet
and life is also very short
your life is sweet